Some people try and copy one contest prep to the next expecting the same results.  What I have learned over the course of my career is, no two contest preps are alike.  For the Arnold’s I was a mess, I was in a dark place, felt alone, isolated and felt like no one could understand my pain not matter how much I tried to express it to them.  It was so bad by the last three weeks I was on Pinterest every night scanning all the good food I wanted to eat and not even thinking about the show.